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Thursday, 29 December 2011

Midnight Diaries

Its been a long day. It seems like its gonna be a long night as well.
Some times I wonder if it was karma ? but then I am not sure or maybe now I dont care. Whatever name it has, it seemed like it came back for me with vengeance.

I actually have never been a philosophical kinda guy.. Or that's what I would like to believe.  I sit in my room where now, I live alone. I found a strange solace in being alone after she dumped me. I was watching the street light scatter in my room through the window. There was silence all around. 
The dark room had a lonely guy in the corner watching the light on his wall. 
The door to my balcony was swinging slowly deciding hard if it should stay closed or fling open. Meanwhile the cool breeze playing with the door was slowly flowing in. 

The room was in abundance with darkness. I still sat there with my gaze stuck on the light and staring at some weird shadows of insects outside my window. I would never accept this but I missed her. Everyday every minute every second. She was in my mind. I got used to stay in the dark because the room reminded me of her. Her stuffs scattered all over the house. Her bag on the cupboard hook, our chairs, corners with pizza cartons, everything. And I had started to constantly say.. ''I moved on'' each time anything reminded me of her. At one point I grew so tired that I stopped saying anything at all. No things to pacify myself.. No hate speeches.. Or anything, that seemed like my attempt to get over it.

I just had began to stare in the emptiness.. 
Just looking at it,without a word out............. 

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there!

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

NOW PLAYING : Unforgiven II by Metallica

P.S : I took Confused Soul's advice.. Posting some of my drafts.. So yup, this was written long ago and nope am not going through a heart break.  Hope you all liked it though its a bit incomplete. Well not everything in life ends does it ?? :) :)

P.P.S : Sorry for wishing you all so late but Wish you all a very Happy and Prosperous New year ahead...!!!! god bless you all..!!!

P.P.S.S : I hope to be more active in the blogosphere at least from next year.. if not writing wise then at least reading and commenting on your posts. Am sorry to all whose posts I have missed. Trust me none was intentional and I miss reading them too.


  1. Damn man, sometimes it's scary to see just how similar we are in all seriousness, it is! I don't think we're being punished though, life is punishing to everyone at times and some of us can just luck out more than others right? Excellent writing as always man, here's hoping 2012 is a great year for you regardless anyway buddy.

  2. Happy new year to you too! I like this new draft format.

  3. hello.
    happy new yr... dher saari badhaiya...
    and i love the title
    and kon hai ye ladki
    bade jalwe hai inke :P
    and btw
    nice poem.. :)
    take care babu g :)

  4. happy new year ..!!!! :)
    touching poem ..!!! <3</3

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  6. Hmmm...I was totally into the narration...Then came the poem which has beautiful words...Loved the last two paragraph of the poem.:)

  7. @Saru : Thank you so much Saru. Those lines were not mine.. I wish I had writtem them.. they are the lyrics from the song Unforgiven II from Metallica

    @RV : Hey RV..!! Thank you..!! Happy new year to you too :) and its not me.. its lyrics by metallica :)

  8. @SUvaiba : hey Su.. Thank you so much..!! Happy new year to you too..!! and nopes.. nnot my poem :)
    @SR Mike : Thanks a lot mate..!! glad you liked it :)

    @YammieWaffles :) Hey Matt, I am so happy that you could connect with it :) Life is strange sometimes indeed man..!! Well happy new year :) and thank you :)

  9. And behind your cover of laughter and dumb jokes, lies this :) You stay hidden in your drafts :P

    You crafted it an endless flow of emotions all poured together. It's easy to relate to and the lyrics made it better :)