Midnight Diaries

Its been a long day. It seems like its gonna be a long night as well.

Some times I wonder if it was karma ? but then I am not sure or maybe now I dont care. Whatever name it has, it seemed like it came back for me with vengeance.

I actually have never been a philosophical kinda guy.. Or that's what I would like to believe.  I sit in my room where now, I live alone. I found a strange solace in being alone after she dumped me. I was watching the street light scatter in my room through the window. There was silence all around. 
The dark room had a lonely guy in the corner watching the light on his wall. 
The door to my balcony was swinging slowly deciding hard if it should stay closed or fling open. Meanwhile the cool breeze playing with the door was slowly flowing in. 

The room was in abundance with darkness. I still sat there with my gaze stuck on the light and staring at some weird shadows of insects outside my window. I would never accept this but I missed her. Everyday every minute every second. She was in my mind. I got used to stay in the dark because the room reminded me of her. Her stuffs scattered all over the house. Her bag on the cupboard hook, our chairs, corners with pizza cartons, everything. And I had started to constantly say.. ''I moved on'' each time anything reminded me of her. At one point I grew so tired that I stopped saying anything at all. No things to pacify myself.. No hate speeches.. Or anything, that seemed like my attempt to get over it.

I just had began to stare in the emptiness.. 

Just looking at it,without a word out............. 

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there!


What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?


What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

NOW PLAYING : Unforgiven II by Metallica

P.S : I took Confused Soul's advice.. Posting some of my drafts.. So yup, this was written long ago and nope am not going through a heart break.  Hope you all liked it though its a bit incomplete. Well not everything in life ends does it ?? :) :)

P.P.S : Sorry for wishing you all so late but Wish you all a very Happy and Prosperous New year ahead...!!!! god bless you all..!!!

P.P.S.S : I hope to be more active in the blogosphere at least from next year.. if not writing wise then at least reading and commenting on your posts. Am sorry to all whose posts I have missed. Trust me none was intentional and I miss reading them too.